I can't find my boot straps.
God, I've been in a slump! Time of year may have something to do with it, though I expect that's as much of an excuse as anything. No work has something to do with it, and my lack of motivation to do anything else, but again it's all just excuses. Too much weed, too much time on my own. As always: I need to get out more.

Have decided to start the clay modelling course using Rory as a model. And now that it's decided, I'm exited at the prospect and we've arranged to do a sitting before the 6th, which is when the course starts. It's going to be fascinating! Men are fundamentally more interesting physically - there is so much more going on and while I've drawn and painted hundreds of women, I've only used male models a few times. Hopefully, over the twelve weeks of the course, there'll be time to make several models of several people. Still not sure who else I can get to sit for me but there are lots of options as far as that goes as they don't all have to be naked, and the thought of trying to convincingly convey clothing etc. is becoming more interesting to me. I'm starting to think of it in terms of three dimensional portraiture, rather than anonymous model.

Andrew has announced that Elastic Press now no longer exists. Such a shame but no-one can blame him - he's done an amazing job over the past 6 years. He's only quitting as he has to work full-time as well run Elastic and always has done. I wish I was half as driven as he is.

Outside everything is covered with frost that's not shifting and it's cold as hell... if hell can be cold. It's cold as hell inside too except for the front room - can't wait to get the radiator fitted in the work room, which should happen in the next week or so.

Should be having another session on the motorbike soon - that'll get me buzzing for a few days. And I'll apply for my CBT pretty sharpish.

Being childless and single has been bothering me an awful lot lately. But I've just remembered that I'm a cunt, which I'm guessing may have something to do with it. --

I mentioned to someone the other day that I have always found the notion of a ménage à trois fascinating, and they thought I was talking about a threesome! See what I have to put up with!